my husband is dead

lying on the couch watchcing no reservations.......it just hits me like a wave of sorrow. He is dead, he is not coming back I will be here alone in this house my new prison until I die. I heave sobs that well up insede me and bubble be to the surface.....eah bubble burstin into a pop of pain they break the surface and pop over and over again. I am helpless to stop them. I try to get off the couch and can barely move. go to bed I tell my self I urge my muscles to move to sit up the popping slows, i sit up only to be grereted by another wave of sobs and pops get up get up.....I stagger to the bedroom and fall onto the bed next to the dog I hold her and cry until I am asleep