walking through the dark

Sunsets at 6:01 PM, I get home after that.....house is pitch black... I don't turn any lights on....I walk through the dark house....shrouded in the cool darkness. I don't want to turn the lights on I don't want to see what is not there, my husband. I want it to be March 25, when the sun last set at 6:01 PM.Chris was here then. Barely, but he was here. I stop, I listen I try to feel him. It is dark, there is no one.