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Patrick Swayze died, People did a cover and pictorial, each picture of Patrick portraying the sexy and gorgeous creature he was. Flip to the last page a picture from "his last photo shoot".
There it is......the look of cancer, the vacant eyes, the gaunt lackluster look, the spirit fractured. When did Chris have that look? I don't recall it, was I blind to it? Someone sent me a "sympathy card" with a penned note that said something about the last time they saw Chris and i at breakfast in March......."I could tell he didn't have long". What a thing to say, did he look that bad as he ate his "regular" Chocolate Chip pancakes......I wish I had a picture of him then....would I be shocked to see what I never saw? I think back to Vegas, he seemed to look ok. Jake and Steve didn't say anything to me about how he looked, oh sure he wasn't energetically at full capacity but we were eating his vegan diet and that's enough to make anyone kinda weak, right?
e only time he looked bad to me was when he was dead, and not even immediately after, a few hours later, when his face was drained and his skin started to mottle. Then he looked bad, like the battle was over and he could never come back so naturally he had to look bad.
I must be losing my mind........