waiting room

lying on the couch.....feel like I am just waiting, waiting for this to be over, for Chris to just come home, come home to be with me, resume our lives, or start a new one with all the lesson I have learned. lessons about slowing down, relaxing, and taking time. pausing. i am ready, I haven;t thrown a thing away all his clothes are here, all his books, everything, I have suc ha a strong underlying feeling that he will be coming, all I have to do is hang on, although that feat is the hardest thing I have ever done, hanging on to something that no one else could possibly believe, but or now it is what feels so true,.. he will be back this is just a test,