New Years Day

I wake up late despite not drinking or staying up late. Aurora too is sleeping in.I have planned to do a YOGA class with a friend in an hour as well as start a diet with yet another friend (this is why I have minions).
I make some coffee and go off to the YOGA class.It is hot-95 degrees, it was not advertised as Birkhram YOGA but it is hot I and not sure about it, It is hard to breathe,I feel shaky. Bev (my friend) seems ok. It is a tough class. I have to modify many things because I am so out of shape but mostly for the arthritic hip. I actually make it through the entire class, and am grateful to make it to the end.
I noticed a woman from my support group is there. She is standing next to some uber yoga guy that she seems to know, He is shirtless and ripped;he can do hand stands and head stands and I think he is a show off (but I if could do those things I would be doing them just as he is).
I manage to make it to the end. There is a mediation piece. We are to thnk of someone we love. Of course Chris comes to mind. I see his face,I start to cry. Now picture a sun warm and glowing, Chris on the deck, Chris and I in the Caribbean, Chris and I in P town, so many suns. stay focused on the sun she says, I can't all I can see is Chris. Now picture the moon, the coolness around it. Aw no pictures of Chris come to mind. the tears slow. Thank god everyone's eyes are closed. Even if somone peeked, my tears could be mistaken for sweat in this overheated room that is now my meditative hell. Keep focusing on the moon, all I can focus on is getting out of here and getting home to shower......
I really try to avoid the group member I know after the class I wait for her to put her stuff away, I turn to the wall. She looks like she comes here alot (she has the good YOGA clothes(I have my Wentworth Hockey T shirt on---not exactly LuLu Lemon.
I manage to escape seeing her (what am I afraid of, that this is her YOGA place and I will be banished because we are in therapy together?. she exits the studio, and I go to get my coat, she is of course in the coat room, I go to the bathroom and wait until I think she has had enough time to get her coat ect. I leave the bathroom and of course walk right into her.She is gracious and hugs me so unexpected...what are the rules here? Is it ok to acknowledge? what if my friend asks who she is? She asks me if I was here the whole time (in class) I say yes but wasn't sure if it was her at first. I was in the back (where the newbies try to hide). She introduces me to uber yoga guy, it is her brother in law. She says that she looks forward to seeing me tomorrow! WE don't have group tomorrow. (it's in PDA as 1/9/10). I am horrified that I am scheduled to work. I had checked and double checked to make sure it was an "off Saturday" I am pissed that I screwed this up. I can't get out of working, I feel stupid and foolish. She doesn't seem to think it is a big deal to miss, and tells me she will tell everyone. I will email the therapist, but still I feel like an idiot, another stupid mistake, along with lost car keys, lost check book, what is happening. Am I losing it again? I have to spend the day writing a grant, should I even bother,I can't seem to get it together mentally at all sometimes.
I have lost the serenity from the class. What was warm and peaceful has turned into cold and clammy. I just want to go home and see how I made this mistake.