I skipped the gym and came home, to check some email replies from the flurry of grant related emails I sent out yesterday. Got one from Andrea and Donna( my financial planner) which triggered me to check to see how all the big transfers went. I of course have to get out the secret password book to get access to ETRADE. I noticed an AOL account of Chris' that I never noticed before. Was that tied to his netscape, gmail account? Not sure. check the Fidelity and log on to the AOL account. It is still active. There are 3500 emails recent up today. I go to the sent folder there are almost 3000 emails sent by Chris .....to me, to Lindsey to Gail, to Lynne and many others. Many around my birthday party, thanks yous to folks for coming to his party (oh so David Goudreau gave him the Klaus Nomi DVD!!!)
I read for an hour, it was like hearing his voice, his personality and humor and just him came through. Wasn't it only 2 days ago I was crying in bed saying send me an email, and now I have thousands to read.
Energy? Chris?
It is so heady to read them (hence the "drunkenness"). It is like found treasure, a winning lottery ticket,or as Adam says "if I had you life would be a party it would be ecsacy"
Hi Karen:
ReplyDeleteJust read your blog and was blown away with this! I would have to say that it is energy from Chris because he knew you needed to hear his voice and presence. Cherish them...I wouldn't mind a lottery such as this. This summer I started to find notes from Abel that he had written messages on. They were in his drawers in between his clothes or in his jacket pockets. They brought me much comfort.
Keep up your writing because your pouring your heart out and it's gotta be theraputic and at some point you will be able to look back to see the stages you have gone through and how far you have come. I wish I could be as sharing with a blog but I have written in a journal.
Would love to get together but you have to NOT WORK constantly, ok?? xoxo mb